All I know is that i'm devastated, lonely, sad, confused and betrayed. I don't know if it is right to feel anger, even if, I don't really know the concrete reason to be. There are so much things I ought to find out, but I can't because it always take two to understand.

I know everything happens for a reason and I believe and trust God's plan whatever it is. I'm a believer. But i'm also human... even if for the most rightful reasons I'm still and will be hurt and in pain for reasons are clouded with humanly thoughts.